In Loving Memory of Mom...: 04/01/2008 - 05/01/2008

Wednesday, April 30, 2008

Remembering that day...

Today I passed the hospital where we learned that you had gone. The weather was warm that day, but not too warm as it was still early June. The sky was blue with a slight breeze in the air. We all left the house at the same time and arrived at the hospital relatively together. I was dressed in my cleaning clothes as I had been dusting the kitchen blinds while making chocolate chip cookies. When we got to the hospital I ran in to meet up with James who was at the desk giving information on you. I remember asking Teresa to help him out as she was good at relaying information that was needed. I went outside and started to pace back and forth. Michael arrived not long after us and went inside. When he came outside (we were all outside the hospital at that point) he told us that you didn't make it. I just couldn't believe it but he said it was true. He was holding tight onto baby Mia who was dressed only in a onesie as he flew into his car when we told him that we were heading to the hospital. I can only image the 25 minute drive to meet us. Lisa was at a Bridal Shower and had her friend take her to the hospital to meet us. John was on the phone with Sandi while Teresa was just getting ready to hand Matthew over to his Grandmother. Bob and Steven were standing/pacing around like I was. All of us learned about your fate at the same time weather physically there or not. The day plays over in my mind constantly as if it were yesterday. I remember having to say goodbye, leaving you there and wondering if you would be okay. Was that what I was suppose to do? It didn't feel right just leaving you there. Would the nurses take care of you, doing what ever you do to someone that has passed on? The staff was nice but I really didn't pay much attention. It felt like we were on display as we were all in and out of the room where you laid. It was surreal. How could the world be going on when you just died? How could people in the lobby be watching television? Didn't they know you just passed away? It truly was the saddest day of my life and a day that I will never, ever forget. As we drove away from the hospital to head back home I recall saying that this can't be real. I remember not sleeping that night. I paced the house, wrapped in your blanket. I even went outside, for what, I really don't know. I cried and cried that night. The kind of cry that makes it hard to breath through your nose. I could not image going on but on is what we did, what we had to do. I miss you every single day and will for the rest of my life.

Monday, April 28, 2008

As the days get closer...

With Mother's day only 13 days away I am bombarded with Mother's Day commercials, emails, mailings, etc. Is it hard, Yup. What will I do that day...not sure. Feel like laying low. It will be a sad day for sure...

Monday, April 21, 2008

I wish you were here...

When times are tough, I wish you were here.
To give me advice and to tell me how to feel.
Am I doing right or wrong with the situation at hand.
What would you have done,faced with the dilemma's at hand.
I ask that you follow us and keep us close,
watch over each of us and whisper right from wrong.

Tuesday, April 15, 2008

I miss you...

I miss you today just as much as yesterday
I wish I could see you and tell you what's new
I miss you so much that it hurts deep in side
I wish I could tell you just one last time...

Thursday, April 10, 2008

10 months today...


Life is so precious, isn't that what they say?
When a loved one so dear has gone away.

Your memories we cling to,
Your photos displayed.
Has it been ten months since you've gone away?

We all have our moments so quite and dear
Our hearts still ache, our tears so real.

Your missed everyday, as we go through our lives,
Our chooses we make, with you by our side.

Life isn't fair, they say that too.
The cards your dealt have been mapped out for you.

Life's so precious, that is what they say
For in life we loved you dearly,
In death we'll do the same.
~Dedicated to Mom~


~Christine

Wednesday, April 9, 2008

A Dear Friend...

Everyone that knew my Mom knew about her dear, dear friend Irene. Irene has know my Mother for over 35 years. They spoke every single day. Irene lost her best friends 10 months ago tomorrow, a day that none of us will ever forget. My mom told her everything and vise versa. Over these past 10 months she now is there for me. There for me to cry with, laugh with and at times bitch with. We share a common bond...Mom. Together we bounce our feels off of each other. Irene has been by my Mom's side through all of life's up and downs...births of children, death of parents, divorce, marriage...I thank God everyday that she still calls to check up on me. In a way she's like a Mom to me. She has the kindest heart that would do anything for anyone.

Thank you Irene for being there for me...I love you with all of my heart!

~Christine

Tuesday, April 8, 2008

Dessert helps...

This past Sunday, April 6 was my Mom's wedding anniversary...what do you say to the remaining spouse...their are no words...

John however did whip up Mom's famous Cheesecake. It was so yummy and tasted just as if she made it.

Desserts always help...

Nana and her babies...

Nana and her babies...
Gavin, Matthew & Mia with Nana taken Easter Morning 2007