Friday, April 10, 2009

22 Months & Easter

Today marks 22 months since that day. How could time have past by so quickly? Today was filled with fun and joy for me and others. But who knew 22 months ago that life would go on, could go on.
I spent the day with Mia. We planted flowers together. Flowers bring beauty, flowers bring smiles. Flowers show how life blooms right in front of your eyes even if your eyes fail to see. 22 months ago I could not even have imagined planting flowers on such a day. How could laughter and joy be filled within us on a day that brought us so much pain? But life has a way of continuing even if we feel that it should have stopped, even if we feel that we can't go forward. For the grief inside us is so bad that we just can't see going on.
For me the 10th of every single month reminds me of that day. Every time we turn the calender and face a new month I am reminded what happen on the 10th. I will always remember. I will never, ever forget.
Sandi called today. She took Gavin on an Easter egg hunt and as they got to the area Sandi said it was covered with pine cones. Gavin yelled "Nana". How cool is that? Nana was there with Gavin watching him as he found the eggs.
My Mom is with each and every one of us. Sometimes you need to sit and think but other times she's right there. It could be as simple as saying a word, hearing a song or yes, even seeing a pine cone. Mom will of course be missed this Easter. The second one since she has passed. Easter was the last holiday that we celebrated together as a family.
Happy Easter Mom. Missing you more and more each passing day.
With much love,
Christine

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