It's just not fair...

It's not fair that ... driving past a Cemetary makes Mia say Nana...

Michael and Lisa were on vacation and while driving in the car they past a cemetary. Mia said "Nana". Well needless to say they broke out in tears.

Sometimes I get so mad that the grandkids are losing out on knowing their Nana. She would have done anything for them. I know that things happen for a reason. But the reason is blurred to me. Maybe our pain is still so fresh that we can't see past the grief. Maybe we will never know the reason here on earth.

It's just not fair...

If God brings you to it,

He will bring you through it.

Happy moments, praise God,

Difficult moments, seek God.

Quiet moments, worship God.

Painful moments, trust God.

Every moment, thank God.

Happy 3rd Birthday Gavin...

Happy 3rd Birthday Gavin.

You are just the smartest, funniest, most energetic, video game playing, toilet training, sentence speaking, tofu eating, puzzle solving, maze doing, math solving, astonishingly independent, soon to be big brother, three year old that we know.

Your Nana would be so proud of you. She is watching you from Heaven and smiling with joy.

Happy Birthday little man. We all love you so very much!

~Life isn't about how to survive the storm,

but how to dance in the rain.~

20 Months...

As I typed the header I really can't believe it. How could 20 months have passed? How has life gone on? At times the feeling of missing her just takes over and I loose it.

Today at work a supervisor got really sick and required an ambulance. This was hard for me to see. It brought back bad memories...

One week before Mom passed we were having the back splash in our kitchen put up. We were unable to use the kitchen, for obvious reasons. John and I were off from work so we called up the stairs to Mom to see if she wanted to go to the Diner to get some breakfast. She hadn't been out much since her surgery so we figured a quick trip there and back. As we were eating Mom stared to feel really sick and started to sweat. Next thing we knew she was on the floor, passed out. An ambulance was called and by the time the paramedics got there she had regained consciousness. They wheeled in the stretcher and wheeled her out and off to the hospital.

So a week later, when the same think happened at home I thought that she would come to. I kept saying "Come on Mom", "Mom". But she never woke up. She never came back to me.

It's hard typing this, and at times I stop what I'm writing and come back to it. Some may ask why does she do this to herself? Why does she re-live the past. Well, it's part of me.

Some days there won't be a song in your heart. Sing anyway.
-Emory Austin

Missing you more and more, everyday....Christine

Where's your red...

Friday, February 6, 2009—millions will help spread the critical message that "Heart Disease Doesn't Care What You Wear–It's the #1 Killer of Women."

Celebrate National Wear Red Day–the first Friday in February–when Americans nationwide wear red to show their support for women's heart disease awareness.

What is Heart Disease? Coronary heart disease - often simply called heart disease - is the main form of heart disease. It is a disorder of the blood vessels of the heart that can lead to heart attack. A heart attack happens when an artery becomes blocked, preventing oxygen and nutrients from getting to the heart. Heart disease is one of several cardiovascular diseases, which are diseases of the heart and blood vessel system. Other cardiovascular diseases include stroke, high blood pressure, angina (chest pain), and rheumatic heart disease.

The Red Dress Pin, the national symbol for women and heart disease awareness.

Mom died from Cardiac Arrest....So where's your red...

Happy 2nd Birthday Matthew...