Missing Mom...

Doing and planning by myself...missing Mom...

Leaving...

On a jet plane (only I'm not. We're driving). Don't know when I'll be back again (only I do, Wednesday).

Going to PA with John's family for a mini vacation. This is the first time since Mom passed that we have gone on vacation. We have gone away for a night or two but never this long.

Anxiety about going has settled into the pit of my stomach. Worry that something will happen to my house and pets while we are gone has settled into the foremost part of my brain, that it hurts.

I know (deep, deep, deep down) at all will be fine while I'm gone. But until I return there will always be the worry, the wonder.

Any who...wish we luck in the woods of PA...

I thought heard your voice today...

I answered the phone at work today and the woman on the other end sounded so much like Mom that I froze and for a minute.

I really was about to have a conversation like nothing had happened, like all of this hasn't happened.

I snapped back to reality and went about the call. But for that spilt second my world seemed to be back to the way it was. The phone rang, I answered, it was Mom, we talked and that was that.

But that wasn't that because that didn't happened. It couldn't happen.

:(

26 Months...

Today marks 26 months. There are days when I ask myself, why? I don't have the answer to that question and frankly neither does anyone else.

Missing you more and more each day.
~Christine

Flowers that we brought Mom on Saturday.