With Christmas only two weeks away I am flooded with emotions and memories. Memories of past Christmas'. How excited Mom was this time of year. Lights and decorations everywhere.
This Christmas, the second one without Mom, seems harder than the last. Last year I felt like we had to prove something. Prove to others and ourselves, that we in fact could "pull it off". Well we did. Was it like Mom did, no way. Was it close, possibly. Did we miss her, definitely. This year though I know we can do it, I just wish that we could do it with Mom.
We decorated Mom's grave last weekend. We put down a beautiful blanket, a small Christmas tree and a Mom sign; of which had been saved from last year. It was sad to have decorations stored in your basement to decorate your Mother's grave with. But nice to know that we will continue the tradition of decorating with her. We also add lights this year. Solar ones. I figured she deserved to have her grave shine, shine, all the way up to heaven so that she could see it.
~Christine
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