Nana's newest babe...

Mason Alexander

Happy Memorial Day 2009

Memorial Day... Calverton National Cemetary.

I'm...

sitting at my desk at work, not working.

releazing that the anniversary is fastly approaching.

sad, really sad.

wanting to cry but I can't.

wanting to be alone, but I won't.

missing my Mom...

Mom's hand in all of this...

As you know Mason had an infection/fluid in this lungs. He was put on oxygen, had a tube down his throat, was hooked up to an EKG machine and had an IV in his hand to administer his antibiotic. Bob & Sandi were told that he would be in NICU for at least 7 days.

That's right it does say "had an infection". That's because yesterday morning he was unhooked from everything and given the green light to GO HOME!

Mason has made a FULL recovery and is right where he belongs...at home with his family. What happened to the 7 days of being in the hospital? What happened to Sandi being discharged without her newest bundle of joy? What happened to not knowing how in the world they would be able to leave their baby alone in the hospital? What happened...

Well I am sure that Mom put her two cents (probably more like twenty-two cents) in. Said enough is enough and just like that Mason was healed. Steven said it right... "Mom had a big hand in this".

I really believe that Mom is watching over her newest grandson and even though she is not here on this heavenly earth she is watching over him from above. She is always with us and for that I am truly grateful.

Mom...I miss you more and more everyday but knowing that you are watching us from up above comforts me as much as it can.

Christine

Memorial Party...

Please join us for a Memorial Party
in Honor of Our Mother,
Judith Rose Heredia

June 13, 2009
3:00 p.m.
~Our House~

Please contact me for directions...

It's a Boy!!!

Mason Alexander

6:33 a.m.

8 pounds 2 ounces

19 1/2 long

Mommy, Daddy and big brother Gavin all doing well!

Mason is doing well but is currently being monitored in the NICU since he's having a little breathing problem. He seems to have some fluid in his lungs that hasn't made it out of his system yet. Cool thing is he gets his very own mask that sort of makes him look like Darth Vader.

Update:

Mason is doing very well today…so well, that he lost his “Darth Vader” mask and is breathing on his own. His feeding tube was also removed and he is eating like a champ. He most likely has a small infection but is being given meds thru his IV. He will be in the hospital for at least 7 days. Bob & Sandi were able to hold him today and he is full of smiles.

Happy Mother's Day & 23 Months...

So today is Mother's Day and it also marks 23 months since Mom's passing. How did I do today? Not so good. I really was a mess for a good part of the day. I was crying on and off for most of the day. Mother's day for me just will never be the same.

John and I planned on visiting the cemetery as did Mike, Lisa and Mia. All weekend Mia was very vocal about Nana. She was walking around the house asking for Nana. She wanted to see her picture. Then after her bath they told her that they were going to see Nana. Well, she was so excited and kept saying, "See my Nana". It was enough to break your heart (and it did). It's just not fair and yeah I know life isn't fair, but it isn't. Mom would have given anything to see her grand kids walking and talking. Why were they robbed of this? Why were we?

So the day was sad and probably always will be. I think Steven summed it up on his Facebook account - "happy mothers day mom i love and miss u its not the same without u"

Happy Mother's Day Mom...

Out of the mouths of Babes...

Teresa called the other day to tell me something that Matthew did.

She has a photo of Mom as a baby on her kitchen table and the picture of Mom at her last birthday dinner (the one at the top of this page) on her refrigerator. She told Matthew that the baby in the picture was baby Nana.

Matthew turned and looked at the fridge and back at the table photo and blurted out...Baby Nana...Big Nana.

How do kids do that?

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I often wear my Mom's flip flops (these slip on, bright red, big chunky, Nana looking, flips) to go out in the backyard. The other day I slipped them on but since it's been raining like everyday I left them on the deck to dry. Well Mia saw them sitting right outside the door and said "Nana's shoes". Now how in the world would she know that??

It's truly amazing what kids pick up on; what they remember. Neither Mia or Matthew could possibly remember Mom (oh that hurts so much to write). They see photos (tons of photos) and their parents must talk about her often (props to them). But do they remember? They can't possibly.

Gavin, being the oldest of the three (who is three) might have a shot at remembering Mom. But I think that too is a stretch. Yet at her wake Mom was so there with him. I mean of course she was there but her spirit was actually there. The wake was 1 1/2 days. We were back and forth there for probably 2 1/2 full days. Every time that Gavin was there he would go to this one spot, amongst the flowers and throw his ball. He was so insistent on being in this one spot. What or who else could it be, but Mom??

Every day I wish she was here, on this earth, to see how her grand kids are growing up. Sometimes I feel bad that I am here experiencing what she would have given anything to see and feel. There's a new baby on the way soon and it brings tears to my eyes that Mom will never get to met your newest grandson.

Mom...watch over these little ones. Be their guardian angel. Give them your wisdom and knowledge. Guide them as they grow and learn and always remember we will do our best to keep your memory in their hearts.